I had the weirdest dream this morning. I dreamed I went to visit an ex-girlfriend, unannounced. Well she was kind of an ex-girlfriend. Someone I had not visited in a long long time. She was no longer living in the house I remember her living in, but she lived in the same neighborhood, in an apartment I think, and it was all very familiar.
In my dream she was skeptical about my motivation for showing up unannounced, and she was skeptical about whether or not it was a good idea for me to show up unannounced, and she was skeptical about whether or not it was even a good idea for me to be there anyway. I was very patient with all this skepticism, and after a while I went outside. I don’t know why. I went out the parking lot. I went out to the car.
When I came back a few minutes later, my mom was there, and her mom was there. I have never met her mom so I don’t know what her mom looks like. She had called both moms and persuaded them to come over to help her build a consensus about my motivation in showing up unnanounced, and a consensus on whether or not it was a good idea for me to show up unannounced, and a consensus on whether or not it was a good idea for me to even be there anyway. I was very patient with all this consensus-building. The consensus seemed favorable. Then they started building castles in the air, especially my mom, about where this was all going, and then I remembered one of the reasons I had gone there in the first place.
There was going to be fireworks, and I had thought, maybe the view of the fireworks would be good from her house. That’s one of the reasons I went there. But with all the skepticism and consensus-building I had exhausted my patience and it was nearly time for the fireworks to start.
So I excused myself and went over to somebody else’s house. There was no skepticism there, any consensus was already good, and we watched the fireworks and had a good time.
I kinda think the somebody else might have been my honey but you know how weird dreams are. Really it was about the drama with the skepticism and the consensus-building. Maybe if I had started out with the explanation of the fireworks, it might have turned out better, but you know, I don’t really remember the last time I went looking to see fireworks. I used to photograph fireworks, with ASA 1000 film, but that was a long time ago. I don’t remember any big fireworks shows in the last few years. I just know I liked the lack of skepticism and consensus-building at the other house.